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Monday, June 28
fall down and stand again
i am sick and tired of being twisted and scrunched up by people. i will say this for the last time. and i don't give a shit to what you're gonna spit back at me.
i am a simple person. my words do not have any underlying meaning. i mean what i say and i say what i mean. call me shallow. whatever. but i am irritated at the fact that you think so much into what i say, twist my intention all the way around, and make me out to become such an incorrigible person. i'm sorry, but i'm not who you constantly make me out to be. another thing, no matter what you say, i am not fake. i mean everything i say and if you don't believe that, sorry, there's nothing else i can do.
i am angry, and very very hurt. i treat you as friends, and yet you do these kind of things to me. but you know what? from now onwards, i don't give a damn anymore. i've tried to make this work out. i really have. but it takes two to tango, and if you're so unwilling...
tell me off all you want. don't keep it in yourself. go ahead. why stop? you've never cared how i felt anyway.
02:23*magickk
Sunday, June 27
adam khoo booster session
ramesh: friends are very important. friends accept you for who you really are, despite all your chao habits.
we did a lot of debates today. it's like they're asking us to become more argumentative. wahahahaha. finally got a hug from that big sized joshua. saw alicia and jiayi again! i feel so old! like only got one guy older than me! met my primary school classmate [she was my classmate for one week only]. went out with terry and terry's best friend, zac. funky :D
my milkshake brings all the boys to the yard~
song that they kept playing in the session.
can't wait for operation blueprint to commerce!
study groups!
cool.
wet games!
funky.
booyeah.
23:23*magickk
Friday, June 25
yuki has been eating birds. or at least, having a go at them. i found feathers in her mouth today. gross.
anyway, to that someone who will probably not read this anyway: i feel so distant from you. all you do is work, day in, day out. i don't feel like you xiao mei mei anymore. you're not there, at all.
i needed to let that out.
18:58*magickk
Sunday, June 20
love keeps lifting me higher
| How to make a lixxie |
Ingredients:
5 parts intelligence
5 parts humour
3 parts instinct |
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of emotion |
17:40*magickk
Sunday, June 13
babra manatee you are the one for me
it's been a while since i've blog ne? nothing much has been happening worth blogging about, cept for the NAMET outing. refer to ade's and mut's blog for details. i don't really wanna talk about that. i have my reasons. and they're pretty personal. i just don't wanna talk about it. right.
mum's in hospital again. water poisoning. she drank some weird milk thing in indonesia and couldn't stop passing motion. sigh. she's always falling ill. i dunno, she seems the strong type, and genectically, she's stronger than my dad too. bleah. she's working too hard.
i haven't properly began to study these two weeks. not good. not good at all. shall begin to study.
apple crumble is yummy.
13:05*magickk
Friday, June 4
biggy fries and a 64oz. milkshake
the day after tmr was a good show. the graphics were good. storyline wise... not really top notch, but acceptable. dragon you must go watch it! the ice is fantabulous!
going to go watch harry potter and the poa and shrek with nie, ade, mut and ter tmr. i just cannot wait! one whole year for the seuqels to come out mans!
the class camp was really fun. i mean, really really fun. we didn't really study. the most i got down to doing was one maths paper that was relatively easy to do [ we just happen to forget all of out equations at the very moment ] the barbecue was a blast! there were prawns the size of your whole entire hand and really really good food going round. sarah and meiyan's salad had a weird taste, but it wasn't that bad. the really fun thing was the ice cream! maaaan. i was really really stuffed. whoever finished the icecream last would have to eat the rest of the food and clean up. thank god we were the second group. i would hve vomitted if i had ate any more. sleeping was horrendous. dragon was one hell of a kicker. muthu... well, i dunno, maybe she tried snuggling in her dream or something. but all in all, i was squashed by both of them. i was experated. me and my sleeping bag migrated.
i miss my darling. ):
12:49*magickk
Friday, May 28
upside down boucing off the ceiling
i absolutely cannot stand it when some who is so headstrong, stubborn, and artificial does things. it irritates the hell out of me. bah. there. that felt good. sorry. needed to let that out. she thinks she so great. like, what the hell man. sorry. some parrots has been sqwaking in my ear too loud for too long.
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let's have a photography lesson! terry you'd better listen up.
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today, we shall cover aperature. i shall make it clear first, there is no right or wrong aperature settings. it solely depends on your preference and creativity.
firstly, we need to make some terms clear. aperature controls the depth of field. depth of field is the area within focus. shutter speed is how fast the shutter of the camera is open for.
why you should stop down a lens is that the world might simply be overexposed, or brighter than you wish it to be. using a smaller aperture is to prevent too much light from entering the image and overexposing it.
aperature is denoted by f/2, f/4 f/8, and so on. the f-number is the lens length, divided by the diameter of the shutter opening. if you want more objects to be in focus, or in other words, to have a bigger depth of field, you'll have to stop down the lens to a smaller aperature. for example, a f/5 instead of a f/8.
that's the basics of aperature. [be warned: i am an amertuer. so if you have any questions, find an expert.]
22:07*magickk
Tuesday, May 25
i could be a caped crusader a space invader and you wouldn't know the difference
i was really moody today. i myself didn't know why. maybe it's the weather. i can never function in warm weather. it's like... my enzymes all start to denature or something. one good news though, i'm back in study mode! but naughty ~neg is always distracting me. naughty naughty naughty. had a nice talk today. told him to start pushing me to study. not keep asking me out, and making me think silly thoughts. i'm feeling hungry. shall eat oreos.
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let set goals. first, let's set small goals, which will ultimately lead to the bigger goal, also known as the o levels. first of all, june holidays. i realised [suddenly] how much i have to complete. so... my goal is to study and mindmap everything seven hours a day. i need pple to push me. so please, if you consider me your friend, push me to study. and i'll push you too :) then we all can do well in our o levels together!
16:14*magickk
Monday, May 24
now i understand what love is for the first time
academic's been stagnant for a while. only thing's improving is my photography skills. maybe this is a new stage, a new chapter or something. i feel, well, different, so to speak. my insights are getting weirder and weirder. it may be a good thing. then again, it may not. i seem to be getting in touch with myself more. but sometimes i find, being shallow isn't all that bad.
ignorance is bliss, knowledge is power. so what?
anyway, today was really scary. mut was waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay hyper. she pranced around, jumped around, and positively scared me to bits. but that's alright. that's the muthu i know and love. not the one going through depression.
I LOVE SLAMD!
19:17*magickk
Friday, May 21
i don't wanna fight no more
today when i brought my dog out for a walk... she started to fight with a cat... ended up bloody. i started to scold her.. "you stupid dog, see lah, fight lah, now ownself hurt." then it kinda struck me. why bother fighting? you'll end up hurt, you'll end up hurting the ones you love. i don't wanna fight. i never did. why can't people just forget about things they don't like. put it past you. it doesn't matter. tired. emotionally drained. i'm really thankful i have people to rant to, that i can relate to. -hugs- thanks a lot satan, for hearing me out today.
20:03*magickk
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